The bar where I was working closed a little over a month ago. At first I thought it would be easy to find another job because of my experience, but after ten botched interviews I began to see things differently and lose hope.
I started going to interviews with a negative mindset, thinking there was no way in hell I was going to get that job because if I hadn’t been offered a position already then why should they? And just a couple of weeks ago, I stopped going to interviews altogether. I would still send resumes out and set up interviews over the phone, but after setting the appointment I would yelp the location and imagine they wouldn’t hire me. The restaurant was too nice, the bar was too popular, the other bartenders were much taller, my mixology knowledge wasn’t perfect enough. I found every excuse to not go to an interview.
Yesterday I stepped out of my comfort zone and applied to a start-up company that had nothing to do with bar tending. Two hours after I submitted my application I got a phone call and a phone interview, which I nailed. The woman who interviewed me asked if, although it was very short notice, I would go to a group interview that was taking place in two hours because she really wanted to meet me.
The prospect of a group interview was harrowing to me, but I went anyway. I felt right about, like my chakras had aligned or my energy took a shift for the positive all of a sudden.
I nailed the group interview and now I’m experiencing the worst part of the job application process: waiting. They told me they would call by Thursday, and even though it’s only Wednesday I’m starting to lose hope. I really want this job and against my better judgement I got my hopes up. It feels very much like when you have a crush on someone and you keep checking your phone to see if they texted or called, or e-mailed, or face booked, or tweeted, or even sent you a smoke signal.
AHHH! I really want to hear from these people!